Can you believe it’s 2015? I can’t.
2014 was a really, really big year in every sense of the word. I tried the hardest that I ever have before in 2014 and across all aspects of my life. I wouldn’t say it was a wash out by any means… a lot of it was very satisfying and much was accomplished. But there is some truth in what they say… Sometimes you just have to slow down or you risk burning out in a big way.
So the act of starting the New Year was going to play a vital role in how I pressed that RESET button.
I hadn’t quite thought about it to be honest. It was all very impromptu – Andrew and I knew one thing, that we had to spend it with one another and our girls. So we took the girls on their very first – and very random – double decker bus ride to the boonies. We explored parts of the city we’d never quite seen and on foot. And they absolutely loved it! We were pretty much on foot for about 6 hours till we got home… by MRT and bus. The thing that amazed me was I didn’t have diaper bag essentials on me or the aid of any strollers that entire time…. which just made me realise how quickly my girls are growing up.
That afternoon, I got on my bike and hit the trail on my own whilst the girls – and husband – napped. The trail was empty and the weather perfectly cool. I’d had a lot on my mind of late so the ride to clear my head was much needed. I got a chance to enjoy myself but also to think about what’s going to really count in 2015. I’m still contemplating but this is pretty much it:
I don’t think there was a single second last year that I didn’t spend trying to better myself – whether it was trying to perform at work or enrich myself as a leader and individual, or trying to achieve something personally or trying to be a better friend etc. Every book I read was a biography or self-help book of sorts.
In 2015, I will strive to do a bit less in order to get more out of life. I’ll read the nonsense that I so desire and watch some TV for the heck of it. I’ll give myself a bit more time in between activities and commitments so I’m not always rushing and complaining about being busy. It’s in my power to change this and I’ve got to remember that.
Find my centre
I have never stopped believing in God and am constantly thankful for the many blessings in life. But life has carried us away and I’ve not really stopped to grow myself in this area.
In 2015, I will look at finding my centre and strength in my spiritual life. And to grow in this both individually, as well as with Andrew – whom I continue to be so thankful for.
Focus on my girls
My little girls aren’t so little anymore. Yup, I’ve got to think about Naomi’s home education a little more than I have.
In 2015, I’ll try to be a better mummy and spend more ‘lesson’ time with Naomi and do the same for little Charlotte, who seems to have a huge desire to learn too.
That’s it. I think that’s enough resolutions for the year. What are your’s?
A few weekends ago, I took part in my first adventure race in years. Stupidly, I did zero training and I just went into it with a positive outlook and two really great teammates. And you know what? I died.
Yes, we finished the race – well, all 53km that we were able to complete before the cut off point anyway. We fell short of 7km which was the last bit of running. But nevertheless, we did it.
The day after, I could hardly walk. But according to the husband, I was the calmest and happiest I had been in a really long time. He said that my ‘tank’ was full and that I should probably consider doing stuff like this for myself more often.
Not the reaction I thought I’d get. I thought I’d get a ‘whyyy did you leave me and the kids for an entire day?!!’
Life surprises you like that sometimes.
One very cool thing that was able to happen whilst we were in Vancouver was our meet up with Hubba’s ex-bowling coach, Ron. Ron had pretty much been a secondary father figure to Hubba during his competitive days and I had heard so much about this man and how he taught Andrew many life lessons.
Having never known the Andrew that most people knew or read of, there always was a missing piece of his past that I never felt I could get a sense of. But seeing his face light up at the sight of Ron and him beaming the entire time just made me light up too. Ron had many kind words and memories to share as well, and this made me feel really happy – to see a side of Andrew that I may not have otherwise seen.
I am really glad we got to meet up. It was such a great day that we completely forgot about the peanut butter he’d brought us from Seattle! Ah well, what’s a bit of peanut butter when you’ve got tonnes to catch up on?
Do you find that as each year passes, life starts to pass you by even quicker than it did previously?
These days, the days and months just fly by. It felt like just the other day I was talking to E about our planning meeting and just like that, it’s over. How is it almost September?
Meanwhile, my girls are growing up fast. Naomi is becoming such a polite little girl and Charlotte such a ray of sunshine. They’re starting to talk and play with each other and there’s no need to prompt them to hug and kiss – they’re so affectionate, they just do it themselves. I sit back sometimes and just take it all in, and watch them interact…
… and a great big smile appears on my face.
And I realise how much I absolutely just love being a mother.
Yes, it might be hectic sometimes but most recently I have discovered that despite how you feel sometimes, they are just such a blessing and I couldn’t be happier about having them in my life. I look at Hubba and I just think, wow. What was life like before? I cannot even recall.
Slow down. Take a deep breath.
Savour the time.
It's really hard not to think about Vancouver and miss it a lot.
Is it possible to be soul mates with a place? When I close my eyes and think of the mountains and the clouds, the people and their kindness, the trees and the soul of the forest, it just brings me to a really happy place. I suppose that's a good thing. To have a happy place you can go to in your memories.
This photograph makes me laugh. We'd gone for a little walk that evening and stopped at the bottle shop to get some vino for the dinner that we were going to make in the apartment. Yup, we thought making dinner would be a romantic thing to do seeing as we hardly ever do it back in Singapore anymore! I love that the bottle looks like it's bowing its head in the same direction as Andrew. Deep in contemplation. You know, 'coz life's so hard.
Sigh. Is it possible to be soul mates with a place?
Loving every minute ‘coz you make me feel so alive, alive
Loving every minute ‘coz you make me feel so alive, alive
I find that hilarious – that our pastime of choice was sitting on benches. My theory is that sitting on benches is only for older people or those with children – it’s like a passage of time thing… The seasons of your life. I don’t ever recall us sitting or contemplating as much when we were in Scotland together. We were always off doing or seeing something.
I like it though. And I like that we do it together.