Keep it together.

Keep it together, keep it together, keep it together.

Anyone else think of Eddie Murphy in Bowfinger when I say that?

Awhile ago I posted about something coming which led everyone to speculate that I was pregnant.  I got a lot of emails, Facebook comments etc that made me chuckle, especially since the picture involved in the said post involved a picture of me on a bicycle. It just goes to show that it’s dangerous to be cryptic these days, and there’s even more of a need to watch what you say.

The truth of the matter is that I was approached by a very lovely publisher and asked to put my name to a book. I was very excited about the whole prospect, and for a few weeks nothing else occupied my mind (well, except work of course). There was nothing I wanted more than to be that someday author that I’m always talking about being. It would have been my first attempt, but the whole process was an experience I really wanted to go through to take writing to a whole new level.

A few meetings went by and a few great discussions came about. I have met two very lovely people in the publishing business that I never thought I’d meet. But then as life has turned out, God suddenly seemed to have different plans for me.

There’s suddenly so much going on and my gut tells me that I’ve got to focus on my current lot and keep it all together.

The last thing I want is for everything to fall apart because I’ve overladen myself with commitments that I can’t follow through with. Yet, I feel so torn about it all. (Very cryptic again, I know. I shall once again land myself in hot soup again for this!)

A friend advised me to turn to Him and ask for guidance yesterday – And to be honest, I kind of already have. And I sort of know what I have to do… But part of me feels like I wish I didn’t have to give this up.

But didn’t someone once say that you couldn’t win ’em all?

So true that.

8 Responses to Keeping it together

  1. E says:

    if it helps, if it was not something that God wants you to have, then it really would not be considered ‘giving up’.

    Likewise, if it is a path He wants you to walk, He will open up doors at His timing.

    • Janice says:

      Thanks…. I know you make perfect sense but the feeling of conflict comes from being human :)

    • Janice says:

      Totally hearing you about the timing being right and him opening up doors later on though!

      • E says:

        It is usually easier said than done.. Speaking from personal experience, sometimes, things may never happen the way we want, then we just have to suck it up and move on… :) I dont do ‘waiting and believing’ very well. Especially the waiting part..

  2. Nadyne says:

    hi Janice, been reading your blog for the past few years.. here’s a quote to encourage you “if ever you feel GOD is taking away something from your hand, don’t get sad He is only emptying your Hand so you can receive something better”.

    Every decision made that gives you peace, is the decision God has made for you :)))

    God bless!

  3. John S. (in S.F.) says:

    Don’t worry, Jann…whether it happens now, later, whenever…

    I will still be standing in line at your first reading, to have you autograph my copy !

    For now, keep those “time warps and trinket boxes” in your heart, and perhaps the day will come when you can let them take flight.