I sit here typing with a little wriggle of joy in my belly, something I certainly did not expect to feel at the end of this year.
2010 has been a very healthy, happy, kind year. Having bounced back from two not-so-great years, I couldn’t have asked for more. My one goal this year was to get myself back into the pink of health, both mentally and physically, as I felt this wellness would then translate to the rest of my life. And it definitely did.
I focused on getting my back fixed – or at least well-managed. I know to some it sounds incredibly dull to repeat but Fightshape and Muay Thai were key to my road of recovery. I plugged at the programmes diligently ‘till I no longer felt like an invalid. I could start cycling and trotting along again happily. In many ways, I felt stronger and fitter than I’d ever been in my life – even more so than my endurance days.
Sometimes I think I was probably unwittingly working towards the bigger goal of Pregnancy.
Despite the first three months of constant nausea and exhaustion, I do think my pregnancy has been comparatively easy to others that I have heard of. I do have a surprising amount of energy as I waddle along my way… I was on my feet from 10am to 5.30pm yesterday walking all over town, and the only reason I had to relent was because my feet got sore. This is something I certainly couldn’t even do at the end of 2009 with my bad back, so must say I’m pretty chuffed ‘bout that.
Aside from the physical stuff, I’ve had a year in golf and quite frankly must say I am loving what I do. This year, I felt like I used my entire career’s worth of experience and pulled it all together to feel valuable. I feel like I’ve really learnt a lot this year and that I’ll have more to contribute when I come back from having Little O – This is somewhere I feel I will be able to stay.
Here’s hoping at least, huh?
And then of course, there’s been the family. Hubba and I have had a really great year – We had one major blow-up for the year which taught us heaps about each other. Other than that, I feel we’ve been the most understanding and supportive of each other than we’ve ever been before. The months of traveling apart did us a world of good in terms of appreciating what we have, and giving thanks for the bountiful blessings in our lives. We have moved to our first proper family home where I pray we will continue to make many happy memories together.
May these memories continue to include all the wonderful friends who have been there for us and with us this year, including our little sausages who have been our pillars of love and joy at home.
This year, I also finally did something that I have always wanted to on my Life’s to-do list.
I dove out of the sky and into the wind.
This was a huge leap of faith for me, to do something completely and utterly on my own. To take that large step off, trusting in the greatness of life. I believe it was only in the trust that I had in my much-bettered physical and mental state that I was able to do this.
Yeah I know, to some, it’s just a piddley little skydive. But to me, that 10,000 feet meant the world.
And then of course, my little darling O.
You’re not even born yet but already you’ve impacted my life in a way that I could have never imagined.
This is the first time I actually take my vitamins and calcium and supplements religiously, that I drink milk for someone else, that I’ve kept my health in such a great state that I think I’ve only caught a couple of bugs in the whole entire year. That’s a record for me, really. I’ve got such a poor resistance that this is probably the healthiest I have ever been in my life, and I do think it’s because I know I’m carrying you inside of me.
I am thinking of learning how to bake so I can make you birthday cakes. I am thinking of understanding photography proper so I can be sure to capture all your big moments. I am thinking of how I’m going to bounce back after I have you so that I can be a resilient, reliant and fun mother to you.
I pray I will be make a good mother, and that I can be even half as great as my friends are to their daughters and sons. I hope I can be as understanding of your character as my own Mummy & Daddy were of mine, and that your Daddy and I will have it in us to give you the blessing of siblings that we ourselves had. I just pray that we will be able to raise you to be as great a person as you can be…. all of this, whilst not losing sight of ourselves so that you may always have a stable and loving home.
Suffice to say, I am so incredibly excited about 2011! I don’t know what road lies ahead of us, what challenges will be placed in our paths, but I pray with God’s guiding strength, we will make it through to the other side alright.
Come on 2011, I’m ready.