When I first contemplated the idea of getting pregnant again, I vehemently swore that I would try to enjoy pregnancy as much as I could if I did. And I really wish I was.

The truth is, pregnancies are hard for me. I don’t walk around looking like I’ve just got a little tiny pillow wrapped around my waist. My skin doesn’t quite behave. And I suffer from a slew of unseen symptoms that make it hard to say, “I love being pregnant!”

Now before I start sounding extremely ungrateful for the gift of life that’s growing inside me, let me just say that as much as I feel shit, I do wake up every day thanking God for this blessing. I know all this is for a greater cause and each time I feel poo, I remind myself that it’s because someone’s life is blossoming in my belly. So the sicker I feel, the better someone else is. I know it’s a silly theory, but it’s the only way I know how to get through it. The flip side is that on the rare occasion that I feel normal, I worry about baby.

When I was expecting Nae, I was constantly seasick for the first 3 months. I was forever green. But although the world swayed around me, I never threw up, which was a lucky thing. I mostly felt like I had a coin in my mouth, and my sense of smell was out of control the whole time. I was also mostly exhausted.

This pregnancy, I’ve had varying bouts of nausea which have led to Merlion moments in the loo. But aside from this and exhaustion, I’ve also started had migraines which last for days. These have been especially hard especially when trying to deal with a toddler and work. I’ve also picked up a virus from Nae, and it hasn’t helped that my asthma has acted up. So I feel like I’m having a tougher time in general, and that I’m constantly whinging all the time.

But Nae has been great about it. In the picture above, she’s trying to get to some toys in the corner of a 24-hour clinic whilst Mummy waits to be seen by the doctor.

I’ve broken down several times from sheer desperation during the migraines, and she’s come up to me and pat me on the face: “Tears, tears!” She would say. “Sad, sad,” before planting kisses on my cheek to make me feel better.

How on earth did she learn how to do that???

10 Responses to Tough Stuff

  1. Yvonne says:

    I too had a tough 1st trimester when I was expecting. Merlion episodes in the morning is a daily affair and I was so desperate to feel normal that I was trying every other solutions I searched on the Internet. Sea bands, eat biscuits before brushing teeth etc. well none of it really worked for me. Good news is the 1st trimester will be over before u know it. So hang in there (I know it’s easier said than done). I have a lovely Nae & doting hubby so ravish in their love and jia you! :)

  2. Yvonne says:

    Btw I really enjoyed reading ur blog and keep the blog entries coming :) & congrats on the 2nd bundle of joy!

  3. olimomok says:

    Aww, hope you feel better soon hon! Nae’s a sweetie :)

    My second pregnancy was really rough on me too – I was nauseous all the time and baby was pressing on a nerve that gave me bad backaches (which would drive me to tears at night). I was so so sure we would stop at two then but now, when I see Ryan smile and play with his brother, I keep thinking of having another baby! No wonder they call it mummy amnesia!

  4. mummybean says:

    Little Nae’s such a sweetie! Second pregnancies do seem to be more difficult. Hang in there Janice! The new bub will be worth it.

  5. Alicia says:

    Hey Janice,

    I’m pregnant for the second time as well. First trimester was bad and I battled acne for this pregnancy so every pregnancy is different. Other than that, I think it’s easier the second time round. I’m sure yours will be the same. :)

  6. zoethemum says:

    hey there. Kids can be so surprisingly understanding beyond our comprehension! I shouted at/scolded Ruth the other night because she made such a mess at the sink brushing her teeth – something which she normally does pretty alright. I was also pretty sick and suffering from bad child-birth-like cramps so *i* wasn’t pretty either la. Later that night, I apologised to her for yelling at her and she said, It’s ok mama” in a really understanding tone and told me she loves me. My tears wanted to roll out. :)

    All the best for your second bub!

  7. Marie says:

    My second round was crazy too. My asthma which I haven’t had to deal with since I was 12 came back with a vengeance and I fell asleep many times will putting the lil one to bed and even while playing with her. It gets better and it’s totally worth it :)

  8. Eunice says:

    It sounds like 2nd pregnancies are generally tougher (most likely cos we’re older + we have a toddler to deal with). I’ve heard it from relatives & friends. Your theory is not silly at all! My friend actually read somewhere that MS is the baby’s way of reminding you he/she is there (hence these babies tend to be smarter). My MS for #1 stopped at 4 mths. I’m now approaching my 6th mth for #2 but still having mild MS so each pregnancy is different. I’m tired ALL the time too… U’re not alone =) Few more mths to go & you’ll have another bundle of joy in your arms & would have forgotten all about these “sufferings”. All the best!

  9. Janice says:

    Babe congratulations!! very happy to hear abt ur no. 2. I recall having a quick comment abt me wanting to be preggers n boom soon after u had Nae, i popped too! Now my bb is almost 1yo n i’m also contemplating to have no. 2…not getting any younger n plus i think i’d better do it b4 my energy level dwindles. IT”S SO TIRING as it is!! well, wish me luck (though i need more than that with the hub travelling so very often!)…n do continue the great work u are doing w ur blog n lift..i’m constantly inspired =)

  10. Jenn says:

    Janice, our brain is made up of 80% water. Next time when you have migriane, try sipping boiled warm water constantly. Boiled water has smaller water molecules clustered together, it enables better absorption by cells. It has to be warm, before the water molecules form bigger clusters again